Today is day three of my
Yes, it's now day three for Callie at the vet's. Not a lot of new news; I just got back to the office from lunch and had a short voice mail from the vet that just said she's "doing better" but they are keeping her overnight again. He was leaving for the day (the office is basically closed on Friday afternoons) but *said* he'd try and call again later. We'll see. They're open on Saturday mornings, so if not today then hopefully I'll hear more in the morning.
I'm a bit frustrated, not so much with him specifically but just with not knowing. It makes me want to run over there (yeah, I know he's not there now, but work with me here...) and shake him and then run to wherever the expert vet person is and shake him/her and yell at them "I know you're also working on other cats/dogs and they're hurting and need you too and their mommies love them and are worried, too, and I DON'T CARE, MY CALLIE IS SICK AND SHE IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN ANY OF THEM SO FIND OUT WHAT'S WRONG AND FIX HER!!!!!!!!!!" But I don't, because I know they are also working on other cats/dogs and they're hurting and need the vets too and those cats/dogs' mommies love them and are worried, too, and I do care.
So mostly I'm just ranting here, letting off some emotional steam, and sitting here continuing to worry.
I didn't bother to call in this morning to see if there was any news, because I figured he would call me if there was any. And it reminded me of a conversation my boss and I had just on Monday. We had a client that emailed to ask where such-and-such document was and when they would have it, and I made the comment to my boss that *that* reminded me of a line from a movie where they're trying to evacuate a city due to an asteroid fragment coming to whack it and the news people stop the FEMA guy to ask him if he really thinks the whole city can be evacuated, and he replies along the lines of, "Yes, and we'd have a better chance if I didn't have to keep stopping to answer your questions." [Bonus points if you can name the cheesy movie, the city being evacuated, and the actor who plays the FEMA guy!] So with the client, it would be "We could get it to you sooner if we didn't have to stop and reply to your question on when you would get it." And the whole point of this is that it's no use calling the vet for news, 'cause he'd have news for me sooner if he can keep working on Callie instead of having to stop and answer the phone to tell me he doesn't have news yet because he had to stop and answer the phone... So I try to keep that in mind and not bug them.
Okay, I'm rambling here and I know it...but I know y'all understand my need to. Thanks. Probably no new news later, but if I hear anything, I'll be sure and let y'all know.
And by the way, about that guilt thing about her being in pain and not knowing? Yeah, my head knows I shouldn't feel bad because cats hide their pain well. But try telling my heart that...you moms out there will agree. I should have known, I should have taken her in sooner, I should have...not failed her. Whatever. But don't worry, I won't wallow in it (too much). I'm doing what I can *now*, and that's all I can do...